I stop being busy....and everything collapses.
This is so fucking stupid.
I'm thinking of her.
I just need to do something else.
I'm sure she has someone else.
And I can't even really imagine it.
I just need to remove that part of my brain.
But its hard...considering the roots of it all...go right through me. But I have to try...there's really no option.
Something or someone new has to come into my life.
Or I'm going to drown. I can feel it.