1.1.2026

It is now 2026.

If there were resolutions to be made.

They would have to be:

Surround myself with people that in speaking

to them, make me feel as if i am creating.

Remember and behave as if time is running out.

Do not give power where power is not returned.

Do not censor, rethink, or redact.

Accept that what is said will not be understood.

If they care, theyll ask.

Give in. Be present.

Get out of my fucking head.

Kill regret.

Create without considering social media standards or public perception...

And stop being afraid of your fucking ideas.

My intuition is my best friend.

dracula 68 iso, shot at 400. standard process.

The developed film looked blank.

i have surgery today. Kidney stones.

Mom finished her cancer treatments.

Her surgery was successful. Cancer free.

Looking for houses to buy. 

Found a few interesting prospects.

Im refocusing on art. I want it to be my life.

I want to give in. All the way. 

Im no good at love. It depresses me.

I fill myself with the other. I lose myself.

Yes, im happy in the mean time. Learning about them. Making them laugh.

But me, when i settle. When i have to return to my normal state, and they are subject to that.

My silence. My solitude. My work. 

There is no way they could love that part of me.

Anyway. 

I want to give up social media.

But its the only connection to the outside world.

Busy month.

Have a few things that im working on.

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