Body for body
Blended, faded forms
Salty sweat in the mid day sun
Wait
The moon is bearing down
And stars are beaming through
Steam fills new york
Spitting at the mirror
"The lights from my window are brighter than youll know. Atleast i know they could still BE brighter than they ever have been before."
Take a breath.
Ignore.
...
Shuffling of darkened strangers on dimmer than should be streets.
They stop to kiss between cars.
"Forget them."
"....forget them."
He nods.
He agrees.
"Can i forget everyone?"
"If you want to"
He put his thumb through her belt loop.
And gently tugs her back and forth.
She smiles.
She looks up to the apartment in front of her.
...
He looks down to the street.
A face stares back.
And the streetlights pulse.
They simmer.
Squinting to find..
The lights shatter into a million specks
Like a halo around that face.

He watches as they walk into the dark.
He closes his blinds. -----

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By the end of next week i will have 7 new pieces for the solo show in october.

Im trying to not show them all online.

But atleast parts.

I also need to consider promotion for it.

New stickers, maybe flyers. Post cards? 

And i need to make prints maybe 5 of each piece in the show. I know thats overkill.

Havenotneednothave etc.

But its shaping up to be the darkest work

Ive done. Its more in line with myself.

It feels more honest. I see purpose behind them. Especially one.

The inspiration, to me feels blatant.

Its all kind of a reflection of my interactions with the world simultaneously my internal response to it.

Have to remember to have them play my music that night. Last time i forgot.

Ill make a list of things to get done before the end of sept. This one feels important for some reason. First show in what 2 years?

work

Its good to know why i was kept.

Objectification is fine as long as im in on it.

No one likes to be deceived.

carnival

turkey run

eagle creek

Kentmere 400

Pushed 1 stop.

Shot at 1000iso

performance @ usom - 2004

1.1.2026

It is now 2026.

If there were resolutions to be made.

They would have to be:

Surround myself with people that in speaking

to them, make me feel as if i am creating.

Remember and behave as if time is running out.

Do not give power where power is not returned.

Do not censor, rethink, or redact.

Accept that what is said will not be understood.

If they care, theyll ask.

Give in. Be present.

Get out of my fucking head.

Kill regret.

Create without considering social media standards or public perception...

And stop being afraid of your fucking ideas.

My intuition is my best friend.